Today is January 8, 2010. That means in exactly 6 days, I will turn 40. I'm not really liking this concept. And I don't really appreciate the patronizing comments like "Age is just a number" and "You're only as old as you feel." I feel pretty old, given that I have many, many, many gray hairs and many, many, many unwanted facial hairs, I'm overweight, and I have at least 2 body joints that give me chronic pain. I'm just not young any more. Don't try to kid me - no one considers 40 to be young any more - unless they're 80. It's just a fact. I'm getting old and I still want to be young.
I am now supposed to be a sage, a wise older woman who can now serve as a mentor to those younger and more naive than me.
Most days I still feel like I'm a kid. I mess up all the time, except nobody spanks me now. I often forget these kids runnning around my house are actually my offspring and not my annoying younger siblings, which would explain the bickering and the noogies.
Ok, I don't have much more venting to do. I will just have to work through this gradually.
Thanks for listening.